Update 17: June 15, 2007
Scorecard: (as of this update):
420 days; 36359 miles (Car: 16485, RV: 19874); 39 states; 45 National
Parks; 17906 photos.
Forty-five down... One to go.
Vacillation. There can be no better word in the English language to
describe the Hatfields of late. The first half of the trip was well-thought
out, generally on schedule, and almost always to plan. The second half
of the trip has been anything but. Of course, things changed for the
second half of the trip: We’ve had the small issue of an additional
and unplanned participant in our journey; one who has required more care
(at the cost of much less sleep) than anything we could have envisioned
when we were planning the trip. And there has been the emotional roller-coaster
that we’ve been on for the past six months, never knowing if a
bad day for Zane meant the beginning of the end. Lately, things have
been a jumble of changing itineraries, evolving priorities, and seemingly
The end of the trip has always been an unknown issue for us. During
the beginning of the trip, it was easy to ignore the fact that we didn’t
have a plan for where to live, what kind of jobs we could get, or how
much money we’d have left in the bank. As we’ve gotten closer
and closer to the end of the trip, the question of what we’re going
to do has become increasingly important, and has added unwelcome stress.
It’s like a skydiver whose parachute hasn’t properly deployed.
The closer he gets to the ground, the faster he goes. The faster he goes,
the more desperate he becomes for some opportunity, some miracle, to
present itself and save him before it’s too late. All the while,
he’s wondering to himself if maybe he never should have embarked
on such a ridiculous endeavor as skydiving. What would have been wrong
with just taking up fishing instead? Fortunately, most of the time things
work out just fine for the skydiver.
We had always planned to end our trip in Colorado. After visiting Durango
for years-- first with friends, and later with Susan-- I knew this is
where I wanted to live. Susan agreed. We liked the mountain location,
the small town feel, and the close proximity to skiing, climbing, hiking,
and many other outdoor pursuits. So we left Phoenix all those months
ago with the vague notion that Durango would be the place we’d
settle down. After learning of Zane’s diagnosis in December, however,
and finding out how challenging it can be to care for a Trisomy 18 child,
we decided we would need to be close to family members instead. Family,
after all, provides a great support network and a steady supply of babysitters.
So we planned to move to John Day, Oregon, where my parents and my brother
live. With a population of less than 3000, John Day boasts a single traffic
light, regular skeet shooting competitions at the fairgrounds, and not
a whole lot of what we were looking for. But, my family is there, and
we decided that we would make sacrifices for the benefit of little Zane.
To that end, I decided to join my dad’s woodworking business (www.canyoncreekwoodworks.com),
and we even started the process of looking for commercial space to
start a storefront. We had seemingly settled the issue of what we would
doing after the trip.
But as we traveled with Zane, and as we thought about our new lives
in Oregon, we came to realize some things. First, we found that Zane
really wasn’t as much work as we thought he’d be. Sure, his
feedings every three hours were becoming a grind, but we knew that after
the trip he would be getting a g-tube that would allow us to use a pump
to feed him through the night. He wasn’t developing at the pace
of a healthy baby, but he was still hitting milestones and outliving
the terrible T18 statistics. We knew that things like climbing and skiing
would be difficult to do with Zane along, but since we’d adapted
to traveling and hiking with him, we felt like we could adapt our other
outdoor activities to work around him, if not include him to some degree.
We also came to the realization that John Day wasn’t really where
we wanted to live. So we modified our plan, and decided that we’d
move to Oregon for a year to be close to family and help with my dad’s
business. After that, we could move to Durango and get on with our lives.
So it was that we arrived in Durango over three weeks ago, passing through
from Mesa Verde National Park, on our way to Great Sand Dunes National
Park. We thought that while we were in town, we should at least look
for some property to buy, in order to have a place to come back to next
year and build a house. A place with ten acres might be nice, or at least
five. But property had become expensive, so we looked at smaller parcels
in the one-to-three-acre range. And then we started hearing horror stories
about exorbitant building costs, and things like having to blast to be
able to get in driveways and septic systems. So our plans changed again.
As our short stopover in Durango lengthened into its second week, we
revisited our latest plan, the one that had us living for a year in Oregon
before moving to Durango. The biggest advantage to going to Oregon was
that I’d have instant employment working with my dad. But since
we’d decided that we didn’t need to have family around for
Zane, employment was the only reason to move there. Skeet-shooting notwithstanding,
having a job wasn’t enough to excite us to move to John Day. Durango
was where we really wanted to be; why not just move to Durango at the
end of the trip and be done with it? Our plans changed again to accommodate
our new direction.
We spent the rest of our three-week stay in Durango looking for existing
homes, putting in an offer, backing out of the offer because of issues
with the septic system, looking for more homes, and finally putting another
offer on a house. As of this update, we have a contract on a house, the
bank is working on our loan (no jobs and a year gap in employment have
not dissuaded them from financing us), and we just had a favorable home
inspection. Our latest plan, the one we now support enthusiastically,
has us moving into our new home in mid-July. Our days of vacillating
We have one more national park to visit before we can officially end
the trip. The next couple of weeks have us selling the RV, visiting my
family in Oregon, closing on the house, and moving all of our things
to Durango. We plan to visit Rocky Mountain National Park in the next
couple of weeks, or if that proves to be too much driving in conjunction
with our Oregon visit, we’ll do it immediately after we close on
the house. At that time, our long, fantastic journey will finally be
As always, we invite you to visit Zane's website to stay
updated on how he's doing. Please visit: www.caringbridge.org/visit/zanemichaelhatfield.
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